LIfe of Eimz

  When you are neurodiverse people on the outside looking in say that oh they are always leaving work early or another one i get commonly is why are you doing these therapies you dont need them you are fine. Actually I do need therapies, and if i dont get my therapies I would actually call it for what it is and that is neglect. I know my body and my brain and when people say oh you're "Normal" or you don't look sick its because I actually work 10x harder just to be a functioning human. but lets talk about the costs of being neurodiverse.  my therapies currently   1. speech therapy $160 for a 6 week block  2. counsellor and classes - $89 weekly  3. Psychiartist - $480 per session twice a year  4. Psychologist - $990 (for assessment)  5. Muay thai PT - $60 6. Strength and conditioning coach - $70  7. Chiropractor - $120 per session  all these therapies cost money but they also cost time, they also have a mental load and impact every person with...

  Masking is my "normal",  I wear a mask for everything that i deal with in silence, as soon as i open my eyes in the morning my mask is on, I take my mask off only when i am alone or when i go to sleep. I do muay thai to numb my brain, get my energy out to keep my brain quiet. on the outside you see someone who looks physically healthy, what you can't see is my inside where my brain lives. the constant juggle of wondering if my immune system is going to fight with my kidneys, if there will be a new sign something is not right with my body.  When I was a baby I was taken to the hospital, I spent 10 days in hospital and out of those 10 days 8 days were spent in ICU. its probably why my voice is raspy and quiet. since I have been young I have always learnt to be super aware of my reading my body listening and looking for clues. I have grown up with a HIGH threshold, we go to the doctors only if we are dying. Yes I have broken bones and cracked my skull growing up i think th...

 Losing my mum last year was the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with, its now been a year and a half and im still living this nightmare daily. being neurodiverse and having someone there since before you were born gone and never to see again is difficult watching it happen slowly over the years in front of your eyes was hell on earth.  I will never forget the day my mum went into hospital, the woman was "healthy" she walked the bondi to coogee coastal walk every Saturday Morning, Volunteered every friday and worked monday to thursday religiously for years eating healthy foods not needing or using medicine and hardly ever getting sick. Until one day developed a cough that lasted for months that never got better. She was a country kid living on a farm 20 mins from the local town, rural but heaven, so naturally if you got sick you got on with life and kept moving because life wasnt stopping because you couldnt keep up with it all.  Mum went to the GP after dad did the...

 Living Life is a privelige they say, Being neurodiverse is an every minute adpation of watching people who are Neurotypical and copying them. "Masking" is a daily task and adapting to daily life is just a given.  neurotypical = someone not diagnosed who has execitive function who has a functioning pre frontal cortex . oh to dream Neurodivergent = someone who is diagnosed with a neurodevelopmental condition basically someone who has execitive disfunction whose pre frontal cortex is not functioning.  Life for me is like living in a fishbowl i can hear everyone i am seen from every angle like cameras are everywhere but nobody is about to tell me ive been punked, just to tell me that i am doing something wrong. Laughing even though you got no idea why because a neurotypical laughs. being an outsider, living ten steps behind everyone your age, loving animals because an animal never judges you. Top it of with Grief and dude I have never felt so lost in my life than ever. When ...

HI My name is Eimz ,  I'm 31years old female who is neurodiverse Ever felt like you live in a fish bowl, you see all the people around you but you dont understand?  Last year my mum passed away Grief is not for the faint of heart imagine what it is like when you are Neurodiverse. my mum was my advocate she was my ray of sunshine on a rainy day. but this is life we are born we live our lives the best we can and then when our time is up our time is up. 

 Strap yourselves in this is life from the perspective of a neurodiverse individual  No photos here people just raw writing ..... showing the ups and downs of life with a condition that makes it easy for everyone to call you lazy when your attention and intention is not to be Lazy.  My name is Eimz I am 31 years old I am a female who is learning to be a human who also struggles, ever felt like you live in a fishbowl not understanding the world you live in? well if this is how you feel too then just know your not alone.