Weekly mid week check up

 Good morning Lovely people 

This week has been alot of Firsts and new situations, this week has been a lot its only 3 days in but i feeling good about it.

monday i moved into head office, then yesterday i had pre booked a pt session to start strength training WHICH technically I have done before with my muay thai gym but my pt coach moved on so I am continuing but with a different gym and different coaches. Being Neurodivergent (ADHD And Level 2 ASD) it comes as no surprie that new places and new people are scary for me. New experiences and changes to my routine make it challenging but I am enjoying it so far, I love to challenge myself but also I love my routine and am pretty ridged. 

As someone who finds the world challenging at the best of times, My mumma who past away two years ago now taught me resilience she used to be allergic to tears but she was still my wonderful amazing perfect mum who loved me unconditionally. She used to say just breathe you have gone through all these problems so far and you are still here the sun rises tomorrow and the stars light up even in the darkness so you too can shine. 

How do I get through new things after the novelty goes away? 

"Im like a bird I want to fly away" Nelly furtado, comes to mind road runner, ok so when i was in year 5 and year 6 we had a weekly class called resilience class to help us learn how to be resilient. it was one of my favourite lessons my library teacher Miss Shannon taught us weekly about how when we do hard things it helps us build our resilience, we can build our shields we can be courages we can show strength, that was 2005 and 2006, I still remember them and I still love them. 

When I say I am ridgid I still love a variation of my lunch that has been the same since i was 3 years old. When I say I am stubborn I would say that I have almost died twice and survived and that makes me probably very resilient and yes I push myself to my capacity sometimes I push myself past my capacity. 

This may shock many but when i am in crisis I like to meditate i like to listen to youtube and meditate for 5 or 10 mins. I sit quietly and I do meditation as you can imagine I like to move alot and sitting in 1 place for many hours is not for me. When people Spite me I take it as green light to do my very best, its a little bit Psychopathic but it works for me. I dont work off compliments or rewards like a normal ADHD person I work off progress. 

Every time someone puts spite in my head or says I can't do something it just means that I can and I will do it, it might not be to the timeline that I supposed to do it by but it will be on my time when its supposed to happen for me. everyday is a new day for new challenges and even though the unknown hurts my brain and body more times than not I still get up and get it done through my routine. 

Monday - Work day 

Tuesday - work and PT strength and conditioning

Wednesday - Work from home day PT Muay thai 

Thursday - Work day PT strength and conditioning 

Friday - Work day 

Saturday - Support worker 

Sunday - Relax day 

This week is 4 days and next week is 4 days because of Easter. because of my ASD 2 being new and I am learning how to get better with my routine and when routine changes eg:this week I am in a different office i started new PT and this week and next week is a short week meaning that my work in the office is shorter Also my morning routine has now changed again because I am catching Public transport in the morning, I still get picked up in the afternoon by my partner.

I am in desperate need of learning to get better with Transitions they are not my friend they are my enemy because i hate them alot and you can't change my mind about them. the Struggle with them can be real and raw. I already have goosepimples thinking about my change in routine this week. and it will take me a whole while to get used to them but it will be good.